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OOC - MEME

2007-09-05T08:09:16Z

Yeah, so I'm totally going to do that whole silly meme where I give you my pup list and you ask the pups any questions you want. They can be IC or OOC as long they stay on the this-didn't-really-happen side of the fourth wall. But I'm sure that you all know this by now, having seen this meme on a bajillion other journals.

As a sidenote, I saw this meme going around last year and thought it would be cool to do, but Li was really my only pup at the time so it seemed kind of pointess. Now I have a lot more pups! :D But, obviously, I'm putting this in Li's journal because he's the only one anyone really knows. Heh.

Active:
angel_of_plague - Aka
btchy_evangelus - Evan Randall
clever__fool - Li
techno_kitteh - Hat

Not been played in the past month or so:
cleverlifoolish - a nine-years-younger alternate Li
damselfli - Alis
editors_suck - Ho
morethanahalo - Chi Ten

clever__fool @ 2007-09-02T13:17:00

2007-09-02T20:18:45Z

Click here.
Take the quiz.
Post your results.
1) How long have you known cutslikeasword? Long enough to be disappointed that he hasn't come out of the closet yet.
2) Is handle_gently dead sexy? Well, he's dead...
3) altalita's eye color? Dark blue. Like the night sky. Insert romantic poem here.
4) Is not_spider_girl related to you? That sounds like it might be dangerous.
5) What mental disorder does not_a_1up remind you of? Multiple Personality Disorder. >.>
6) Are leavemea_lone and irishredwolf going steady? next pls
7) What would irishredwolf give dimension_bitch for his/her birthday? ... Cake?
8) Is bishie_beastboy your best friend? I don't play favourites like that. :o
9) What is dimension_bitch's favorite band/artist? Your mom.
10) Could you see white_spartan and m_j_caboose together? Yes. And... it hurts. o_o
11) If soma_crucifix and savannah_nately were siamese twins where would they be joined? At the pinky.
12) If truebornbanacek and bishie_beastboy were spliced together, what would be its name? Ned. No, I don't know why.
13) What is soma_crucifix's favorite food? UH. UH. Catfish. In white sauce. I DON'T KNOW.
14) Is moonyjohnlupin an emo? No. He could be, but he's not.
15) Which of your friends should savannah_nately go out with? Other than me?! ... Alta.
16) What do you agree with irishredwolf about? Lots of stuff! :D Such as, 'men are hot'.
17) Is irishredwolf related to not_spider_girl? That would be so cool.
18) Where was cutslikeasword born? In a tree. That's why he has a stick up his arse.
19) What comic book character would perkymartian be? GEE I DON'T KNOW.
20) When did you last call wright_idea? Too long ago. In fact, where is he?!
21) Do you think devilsphyscian is hot? ...... NEXT PLZ
22) What would not_spider_girl think of bishie_beastboy? I don't think she'd have an overwhelmingly strong opinion of him. But I could be wrong.
23) Do you have wright_idea's screenname? What.
24) Does soma_crucifix know not_a_1up? I don't think so.
25) Thoughts on soma_crucifix? He makes a very good canvas for drawing on.
26) What animal does leavemea_lone remind you of? A betta.
27) Would you make out with wright_idea? It apparently depends on whether or not I'm under the influence of LOLs or intoxicating substances.
28) What is irishredwolf's favorite movie? Your mom.
29) Would you ever date m_j_caboose? Yes. I would. And that fact scares me.
30) Does cutslikeasword go to your school? HAHAHA no.
31) Does devilsphyscian have a crush on leavemea_lone? I'm going to say yes, because that is the answer that will offend the most people.
32) If truebornbanacek were hanging off a cliff, what would wright_idea do? Litigate him to safety.
33) Does devilsphyscian do drugs? If he did, he'd be so good at hiding it that I would have no idea.
34) What do you disagree with cutslikeasword about? All sorts of things. Sometimes I disagree with him about something just for the fun of it!
35) One quality you find attractive in dimension_bitch? Her hair. And that's just the first thing I thought of.
36) What word best describes white_spartan? Crazy.
37) Do you have a crush on handle_gently? I don't think so?
38) Where did you first meet cutslikeasword? In the closet.
39) What is soma_crucifix's favorite color? I think it may be blue.
40) Is perkymartian athletic? Probably.
41) Would truebornbanacek be a better ninja or pirate? Ninja, definitely.
42) How would irishredwolf conquer the world? I'm not entirely sure, but I want to say that he'd somehow do it with cuteness.
43) If leavemea_lone and savannah_nately were spliced together, what would it be like? The apocalypse.
44) If truebornbanacek was a superhero, who would be his/her archnemesis? Alta.
45) Is not_a_1up a high school student? Probably not.
46) Which president would devilsphyscian be likely to idolize? I don't feel like answering this question.
47) What would you do if altalita died? .... D: I dunno. Become a cold, empty shell of a human being and start calculating how and when I could die so as not to inconvenience anyone?
48) Is moonyjohnlupin a nerd? Maybe.
49) Have you flirted with not_spider_girl? Well. Yeah.
50) Have you ever dated hypnosnake? No.
51) Did dimension_bitch break up with you? Yes. She dumped me on the grounds that we weren't dating so we can't possibly have been dating.
52) Is wright_idea a college student? Not anymore.
53) If devilsphyscian commanded an army, who would be his/her followers? Zombies or something. He'd definitely command an army of the undead.
54) One thing you can't stand about moonyjohnlupin? I am slightly bothered that there's nothing I dislike about him.
55) Where was devilsphyscian born? Over there.
56) Is m_j_caboose introverted or extroverted? He's.... yeah.
57) Does not_spider_girl have a big secret? Probably.
58) What color should leavemea_lone dye their hair? Pink. :D
59) Would you wrestle cutslikeasword in jello? Ye-- I MEAN NO.
60) Is dimension_bitch in a relationship? Yeah.
61) If wright_idea took over the world, who would suffer? Himself, because he'd try to find a way that nobody would suffer unduly and the stress would take a tremendous toll on him. ... Which reminds me, has anyone actually seen him since he got arrested? Because I haven't but he escaped and...
62) Is perkymartian 1337? I don't know how old she really is.
63) What animal should altalita be combined with? A sexy. I'm sure that's a kind of animal in some universe.
64) Would savannah_nately go out with bishie_beastboy? I don't think so.
65) What would you do if you found out hypnosnake has a crush on you? I would make a pun. Because he's a python. And crushing... yeah.
66) Has white_spartan dyed their hair? No.
67) What exotic animal would wright_idea like as a pet? A parrotguana. It's half-parrot and half-iguana and I just made it up because I couldn't decide between the two.
68) Where would savannah_nately most like to visit? Greenland. :D No, I'm not even trying anymore.
69) Are irishredwolf and truebornbanacek going out? Yeah. Shhhh, it's a secret.
70) Do not_spider_girl and moonyjohnlupin go to the same school? No.
71) What flavor of jello would dimension_bitch be? Definitely not vanilla.
72) not_a_1up's hair color? Black.
73) How tall is savannah_nately? 5'2", I think.
74) If savannah_nately had a superpower, what would it be? She'd have Bee Powers.
75) Is not_spider_girl popular? Her milkshake brings all the boys to the yard.
76) How would handle_gently kill moonyjohnlupin? Very gently. Why are talking about killing off my friends?! D:
77) Does perkymartian drink? I'm pretty sure she consumes liquids for purposes of hydration, yes.
78) What would irishredwolf do differently in your shoes? Women. I don't think he'd do them at all.
79) What is hypnosnake's favorite game? Wrestling~! Okay, that's not really a game.
80) Is hypnosnake friends with hypnosnake? No, they hate each other.
81) What is m_j_caboose's biggest flaw? I think he's flawless. :D()
82) What is altalita's shoe size? Is 'barefoot' a shoe size?
83) What is moonyjohnlupin allergic to? Moons. >.>
84) Does white_spartan smoke? Like a chimney. No, not really.
85) What planet should soma_crucifix be from? The moon. (That counts.)
86) What rank would handle_gently have in a giant robot army? He'd be the healer.
87) Does bishie_beastboy travel a lot? Not really.
88) Would bishie_beastboy and perkymartian look good together? Yeah.
89) Has wright_idea been to your house/dorm? Yep.
90) Would you set up wright_idea and soma_crucifix? Nope.
91) Are handle_gently and cutslikeasword married? Yes. To each other. I feel bad for Hanatarou, though.
92) How long would bishie_beastboy dating dimension_bitch last? Forever.
93) How many monkeys could leavemea_lone fight at once and win against? Two and a half. That extra half of a monkey is what really makes it hard for him.
94) What song/movie would you recommend to not_a_1up? No idea. o_o
95) Is soma_crucifix single? No, he's dating his cat.
96) What video game does truebornbanacek remind you of? Any one that involves giant robots.
97) Does not_a_1up have a dog? Yes, she has Rylie. :P Sorry, I couldn't resist.
98) Would white_spartan and perkymartian make a good couple? No.
99) If savannah_nately took over the world, who would be happy? Me! :3
100) What languages does leavemea_lone speak? English, Japanese, and angsty teenager.

So pure and simple, but it feels so dirty...

2007-08-28T10:25:39Z

The moon hides behind a tree, like a golden-skinned maiden coyly peeking out from behind a fan.

Seriously, you should've seen the moon that night. It really looked like that. What I said at the time was also probably a lot more beautiful and poetic. I should've written it down, but I promised myself I'd remember it. Now I'm not even sure if I did or not.

So much has happened, but I have so little to say about it. That, and I just don't feel like telling everyone about everything.

Things I've learned:
- No, it wasn't that I was just too young to know about any of the cool stuff. The 70's really weren't all that great.

- Once Rylie gets the idea to do something, convincing her not to do it is not something I seem to be able to do. Maybe it's impossible, or maybe I'm just not trying hard enough.

- The amount of worshipping of Alta that I do is clearly not as much as she deserves.

... And that, friends, is all you really need to know about time travel to the 1970's.

I'm sorry I've been gone and/or busy so much lately. I intend to stick around and actually be around for at least a while, but we all know how these things go.

It's good to be back.

[locked to Hanatarou]

2007-07-17T22:08:42Z

The place Hanatarou is given the coordinates to is a small bedroom-like room, just off of the Sanctuary. It closely resembles a chemistry lab, like the kind one would find in a high school, except that most of the desks and things have been taken out and there's a bed in one corner. There's a door to the bathroom on the opposite wall, and the wall opposite the Sanctuary contains a long countertop with some sinks and gas outlets, and windows all across it looking out into the Yard.

Li sits up in bed, blinking sleepily and waiting for Hanatarou. Fortunately, he's already wearing a t-shirt and shorts, so he doesn't have to hurry up and get dressed or anything.

IC/OOC - IRC logs

2007-07-12T22:00:42Z

Synopsis: Li got kidnapped and tortured by Changeling's (even more?) evil alternate. Contains descriptions of violence and gore, and fade-to-black non-con.

[12:52am] • Li_Chang wanders in here from the portal to his own world. "Hi~"
[12:53am] normal-Ivy: "Hi?" She's not looking for a Li. She is looking for a Phoenix. Not the kind with feathers either.
[12:53am] • Changeling[alt] appears from one of the side rooms, looking around. He waves when he sees Li.
[12:53am] Li_Chang: *to Ivy* Something wrong?
[12:54am] • Li_Chang waves to Changeling, noting that it's the alt by the subtly different haircut. Well, he doesn't want to get too close, but there's no reason to not be friendly! ... That he knows of.
[12:54am] normal-Ivy: "I'm lookng for Phoenix. I...just got a bad feeling. That's all. I was caught up in some stuff yesterday and didn't see him."
[12:55am] • Changeling[alt] sashays on over and settles on the couch arm nearest Li. "Hmm, maybe he's just busy?"
[12:56am] • Li_Chang is oblivious to what's been going on with Phoenix, but it is getting pretty late... "I think he's usually in bed by now, isn't he?"
[12:56am] Li_Chang: *to Changeling* Maybe that, too.
[12:56am] • Li_Chang smiles at Changeling because Changeling is teh cute. Even if he is an alt who may or may not be psycho.
[12:57am] • Changeling[alt] smirks back, in that familiarly flirty way.
[12:57am] • normal-Ivy blushes just a little. What? She's been staying over alot uslately. Due to needing to stay wth someone. And well...yeah. "JHe usually is around. If long enough for me to um, go home with him. I've been having to stay here alot lately and am more comfortable staying at his place."
[12:58am] Changeling[alt]: Hmm. Well, perhaps he'll come in soon to check if you're here? If it's a usual thing.
[12:59am] normal-Ivy: "Maybe." But she was a little worried. "But it is late."
[12:59am] • Changeling[alt] makes room on the couch arm for Li. :3?
[01:00am] • Li_Chang nods in agreement with Changeling's Earth Logic. He's not trying to be flirty towards Changeling, but perhaps his body language could be taken in a flirtatious way. He's not good at wholeheartedly saying no, you realize.
[01:00am] • Li_Chang hasn't sat down yet. Is intentionally trying not to decide whether or not to sit near Changeling!
[01:00am] • Changeling[alt] would argue that just sitting next to someone isn't all /that/ flirty
[01:00am] Changeling[alt]: He could just have fallen asleep. Try calling him?
[01:01am] Li_Chang: Hm, well, I'd bet he's in his apartment. Do you need help finding it, or...?
[01:01am] Li_Chang: Or, yeah, phone calls.
[01:01am] normal-Ivy: "Nope. I'll just call." She pulls a cell phone out of her pocket to give Phoenix a call.
[01:04am] • Changeling[alt] shifts a tentacle out of his hips and snags Li, pulling the other boy into his lap for a hug. "C'mere, cute stuff. How's things?"
[01:04am] • normal-Ivy sighs and shuts her phone. "Busy. I could head over. But..." Oh right. Nervous again. She's totally going to mock herself for worrying so much mentally.
[01:04am] • Li_Chang squeaks and blushes! "H-hi! Things are good."
[01:05am] Li_Chang: *to Ivy* But...?
[01:05am] • Changeling[alt] nuzzles at Li's neck. "Good. I'm glad to hear that." He's being quiet, so as not to interrupt Ivy's fussing too much.
[01:06am] normal-Ivy: "He could be in the middle of something. Don't want to be a bother. He's been doing so much for me and...I guess I don't want to drain him so much."
[01:07am] Li_Chang: I don't think he'll mind. I mean, he's probably expecting you anyway, right? I'm sure he's just tied up on the phone or something is all.
[01:07am] Changeling[alt]: Hmm, he's probably talking to someone. Give him a while and he'll probably head out here, or you can call again.
[01:07am] • Changeling[alt] is a very touchy-feely hugger >_>
[01:08am] • normal-Ivy nods lightly. "Yeah. Either way he knows I'll be around here."
[01:09am] • Li_Chang is beet red and kind of glad for once that Ivy can't see it. "Changeling~! I..." Whispered, "This is neither the place nor the time!"
[01:10am] • Changeling[alt] hmms lightly against Li's neck. "Well then, let's go someplace more private?"
[01:11am] • normal-Ivy is probably going for coffee. To keep her nerves calm while she waits to call Phoenix again.
[01:11am] • Li_Chang gets a brief look on his face that seems to say, 'yay, hot sex with Changeling!' Then he remembers that this is not the Changeling he's looking for.
[01:11am] Li_Chang: ... I can't tonight, Changeling. I'm sorry.
[01:12am] • Changeling[alt] makes a cute pouting face.
[01:13am] Changeling[alt]: Awww, why not?
[01:13am] Li_Chang: B-because! I'm tired, and I have to, uh... do things!
[01:14am] • Li_Chang is a horrible liar. It's hereditary.
[01:14am] • normal-Ivy carefully ignores the fact that they're probably talking about sex. Or something. Because sex is not going to be on her brain while worrying about Wright.
[01:15am] Changeling[alt]: Aww. Well, I understand, I guess. Should I stop hugging you and let you go... do stuff? *Very wibbly face.*
[01:15am] Li_Chang: Yes. Yes, I think so. *kiss on the cheek* Sorry about this.
[01:16am] • Changeling[alt] will snag a kiss on the lips. "See you later. When it's a better time to do things."
[01:16am] • Changeling[alt] then releases the hugging. Aww :<
[01:16am] Li_Chang: Alright~ [... or not.]
[01:17am] • Li_Chang heads off to his sideroom. "Goodnight, Ivy."
[01:17am] normal-Ivy: "Night Li." She'll nurse her coffee. And wait like five more minutes.
[01:18am] • Changeling[alt] waits until Li has gone, then gets up with a stretch. "Bye, Ivy." He turns into a ghost, becoming invisible to most sight, and leaves, following Li

[01:18am] • Li_Chang is in here (editor's note: in his room), checking email, and-- oh! He should check voicemail, too.
[01:18am] Phoenix_Wright: *phone ringing!*
[01:19am] Li_Chang: Hm? *goes to pick it up. He's standing right there, anyway, so it probably picks up on the first ring*
[01:19am] Li_Chang: Hello?
[01:19am] Phoenix_Wright: Li? Oh thank God, I got through.
[01:19am] • Changeling[altghost] is carefully walking up behind Li, preparing a (currently intangible!) rag and chloroform.
[01:19am] Li_Chang: Phoenix? What's up?
[01:20am] • Li_Chang probably has his back to Changeling right now, anyway.
[01:20am] • Changeling[altghost] is so tempted to hum something, but needs to stay quiet as he brings the invisible, intangible cloth in front of Li's face from behind.
[01:20am] Phoenix_Wright: Look, this is really important: Changeling's alt, he's a psychopath. He kidnapped me and your younger alt and... Christ, Li, he carved something into my goddamn chest, just stay the hell away from him. Stay in the AVF protected areas, ANYTHINg.
[01:21am] • Changeling[altghost] turns tangible with excellent timing, so that the cloth is pressed over Li's mouth
[01:21am] Li_Chang: Oh? But my room-- *incoherent squeaking and then silence!*
[01:22am] Phoenix_Wright: !! Li?! LI!
[01:22am] • Li_Chang is out like.... a light.
[01:22am] Phoenix_Wright: Li, are you there?! Speak to me!
[01:22am] Li_Chang: *silence!* *unless Changeling says something*
[01:22am] • Changeling[alt] carefully places Li's unconscious body on the bed and puts the cloth away, then picks up the phone. "I'm sorry, Li is out right now. Would you like to leave a message?"
[01:23am] Phoenix_Wright: LI!
[01:23am] Changeling[alt]: Forgetting my name already? How rude.
[01:25am] Changeling[alt]: Mmm, well, much as I /love/ taunting the heroes, I really must be going. Speak to you later, sweetheart. *Click*
[01:26am] • Changeling[alt] hangs up, and then very quickly teleports himself and Li away.
[01:28am] Phoenix_Wright: !!

[01:28am] Changeling[alt]: *The warehouse is about the same as before. Changeling's alternate starts tying Li to one of the pillars with chains.*
[01:29am] • Li_Chang is just starting to come to. He's being chained up... Eh?
[01:29am] Li_Chang: Nnn...
[01:30am] Changeling[alt]: Ah, good morning sunshine *he finishes with the chains and steps back :3*
[01:30am] Li_Chang: 'Snot morning and my name's not Sunshine.
[01:31am] Changeling[alt]: My, you're quite the pedant.
[01:31am] Li_Chang: I get that a lot~...
[01:32am] • Li_Chang blinks and finally opens his eyes. .... O_O Oh dear. Oh, deary-dear.
[01:32am] Changeling[alt]: Heh. I like you. You're fun.
[01:33am] Li_Chang: Th-thanks. You know what isn't so fun, though? Being non-consentually chained up.
[01:34am] Li_Chang: I seem to recall saying no to doing anything, just earlier.
[01:34am] • Li_Chang doesn't REALLY think that that's what this is about.
[01:35am] Changeling[alt]: Hmm, well, I dislike having to take no for an answer. But I have other things in mind, since you turned me down.
[01:36am] Changeling[alt]: Although... *he leans over to stroke Li's cheek lightly* we can still do things later, I'm sure.
[01:36am] • Li_Chang just scowls a little at all this. "What did you have in mind, then?"
[01:38am] • Changeling[alt] leans back, smirking. "I would simply like to ask you a question or two, that's all."
[01:39am] Li_Chang: I see. Like what?
[01:39am] Changeling[alt]: Tell me about Changeling's friends. I'm interested to see how different we are, and how alike. That's easy enough, hm?
[01:41am] • Li_Chang decides that maybe he'll play dumb. Outright lying he sucks at, but at acting? He's reasonable. "W-wait, you mean you're not Changeling?"
[01:43am] • Changeling[alt] pulls out a knife and spins it around his finger. "Now, Li, don't play coy with me. I heard what Phoenix said on the phone. A little late, poor dear, but accurate."
[01:45am] • Li_Chang frowns. Dammit! Oh, well. "Fine. What, specifically, do you want to know?"
[01:45am] Changeling[alt]: Hmm. Name some names, first, and then I'll ask about the interesting ones.
[01:46am] Li_Chang: I'm afraid I can't easily do that.
[01:47am] Changeling[alt]: Why not?
[01:49am] Li_Chang: Because I don't *in mid-sentence, hopefully when Changeling is least expecting it, he hooks one of his feet around Changeling's ankle in an effort to try and make him fall backwards.*
[01:50am] • Changeling[alt] was not expecting it, nope! So he does fall backwards, but turns it into a backflip >:O*
[01:52am] • Li_Chang takes this opportunity to shapeshift subtly such that his arms slip out of the manacles and stand up.
[01:53am] Changeling[alt]: ... Hm.
[01:54am] • Li_Chang reaches into his pocket - dammit, no PINpoint! Oh, well. He'll just have to make due somehow. "You shouldn't underestimate people like that."
[01:55am] Changeling[alt]: I won't make that mistake again. You're making this hard on yourself. *He throws two knives past Li's ear.*
[01:56am] • Li_Chang winces away from them. Eek, too close! An extra-long, black tentacle emerges from somewhere under his shirt and shoots towards Changeling.
[01:59am] • Changeling[alt] dodges to the side, slashing at the tentacle with his melee knife.
[02:03am] Li_Chang: *the tentacle is slashed but not cut through. Li himself mirror's Changeling's movement, not wanting to get too far away. The first tentacle... grows some spines! And moves back in towards Changeling's face as Li begins to aquire a second, similar tentacle on the other side of his body.*
[02:05am] • Changeling[alt] makes a tch noise and is covered by green scales, which absorb most of the impact. He throws a knife a Li's kneecap.
[02:07am] • Li_Chang screams as his kneecap is knifed! He is forced to kneel on the other leg and is entirely distracted by the pain.
[02:07am] • Changeling[alt] runs forward, shifting his fist into a lump of rock, and aims a puch for Li's chest.
[02:10am] Li_Chang: *it connects; the wind is knocked out of Li and he will fall backwards to the floor. But not without at least one last attempt - both of his tentacles move to wrap around Changeling's wrist.*
[02:13am] • Changeling[alt] scowls as his wrist is caught, and starts shifting it into a tentacle as well in order to wriggle it free as he stomps on Li's solar plexus with his foot.
[02:18am] Li_Chang: *there is some cracking of ribs and general sounds of pain and fear and agony coming from Li. The spines on his tentacles try to dig into Changeling's flesh in desperation and drag his tentacle-that-was-an-arm downwards and backwards to get him off of Li*
[02:21am] • Changeling[alt] grunts in pain as the spines dig in, and turns that hand into ghost form instead. He places his foot on Li's neck and presses.
[02:24am] Li_Chang: *the tentacles flail, trying feebly to grasp at Changeling somewhere, anywhere. His hands go to grab Changeling's boot, anything to get it off of his neck so that he can get some air.*
[02:27am] Changeling[alt]: If you don't lie /still/ I'll crush the breath out of you until you do. *He shifts so that his leg is made of craggy green rock, though the pressure remains just enough to make it difficult to breathe rather than cutting off air completely. Still, Li might pass out after a minute or two of that.*
[02:33am] • Li_Chang realizes at this point that it's useless to continue trying to fight. Even if, by some miracle, he could briefly overpower Changeling, he is too injured to even stand up right now. With a small and pitiful whimper, he surrenders and the tentacles fall to the ground limply and begin to shrink back into his body. His hands are still holding onto Changeling's foot, but it's purely instinctual.
[02:33am] • Li_Chang just concentrates on trying to breathe as effectively as possible.
[02:34am] Changeling[alt]: Good boy. Now, just to make this /clear/ - if you make any more trouble, I'll simply kill you and dump your mangled corpse where he can find it. Understand?
[02:37am] • Li_Chang nods once, and-- this can't be happening. Why is this happening? He's going to cry a little, now, from the pain and the shock of suddenly being in this situation.
[02:41am] Changeling[alt]: Hmm, there we go. You know, we can /still/ have fun, if you just do what I say. *He kneels by Li, taking his foot off the other boy's neck, and pulls the knife out of his knee.*
[02:44am] • Li_Chang winces as the knife is pulled out of him. He starts shaking now, and - oh, my, his stutter has gotten worse. "I- I- I d-don't want... t-to..." He probably isn't even sure how he was going to finish that sentence and is just babbling randomly. Maybe he's trying to express that this whole situation is a 'do not want'
[02:46am] Changeling[alt]: Oh, but you enjoyed it last time, didn't you? Mmm. *He licks the blood off the knife blade, then breathes a small gout of green flame over it to heat the metal, which he then pressed to Li's knee wound.* Now, we don't want you bleeding out, do we?
[02:48am] Li_Chang: AAAAAH! *ow, that really hurts. Even if it is indeed for his own good. Hands clenching into fists and looking for something to grab, now.*
[02:50am] • Changeling[alt] presses the flat of his hand onto Li's chest to hold him down, as if experienced in stopping people from flailing in pain. This means his arm is within grabbing reach. "Shh, shh, it'll be over soon. There * he pulls the blade away from the cauterised flesh.*
[02:52am] • Li_Chang will indeed grab onto Changeling's arm, then, but he's not going to try anything funny. You could say that he's pretty much been beaten into submission.
[02:54am] • Changeling[alt] keeps his arm and hand steady, and climbs on top of Li, straddling his hips. Uh. "Well now. Let's try this again, with less chains, hm? We don't need /those/ any more, at least not for now. Tell me some names. Changeling's friends."
[02:55am] Li_Chang: N-no. *looks away*
[02:55am] • Li_Chang is at least trying to stand his ground!
[02:56am] • Changeling[alt] frowns and trails the hot knife up the flesh of Li's leg. He only cuts shallowly, but it should be very painful with the heat. "Wrong answer."
[03:00am] • Li_Chang screams and makes trying-to-get-up motions at the pain. Though, even if Changeling weren't sitting on him, the pain in his ribs would still kind of prevent this. "No! I can't! Please understand!"
[03:02am] Changeling[alt]: If you don't tell me, I will make your deat long, and drawn out, and /so/ painful. I'll send little bits and pieces of you to Changeling and Phoenix. I'll record your agony and let them see it for themselves. And it's just a few names, hm? Just a few, simple words. /Tell/ me.
[03:03am] Li_Chang: If I tell you, you will do to the others exactly what you're doing to me. I can't allow that.
[03:04am] Changeling[alt]: Ohh, not exactly, no. Once I have the names, after all, I won't have to ask, will I? I can cut to the /chase/.
[03:05am] Li_Chang: You'll kill them, then.
[03:06am] • Changeling[alt] laughs and shakes his head. "No, no - that would be terribly boring. I have to get my message across first."
[03:08am] Li_Chang: I can't let you do that. Heck, I... I can't /make/ myself let you do that. Just to make you go away...
[03:08am] • Changeling[alt] begins cutting away at Li's shirt, humming under his breath. "Now, see, I already have enough names to start, really - I was just hoping to get a choice of targets. So. Tell me names, or tell me more about Tim. Hm?"
[03:09am] Li_Chang: .... I don't know Tim well. I've met him once? Maybe twice?
[03:10am] Changeling[alt]: Hmm. Describe him to me.
[03:15am] Li_Chang: Nn. ...... *is stalling, yes* .... He's blonde. Pale. A bit taller than I am.
[03:17am] • Changeling[alt] swishes the knife across Li's collar bone, opening a shallow gash. "Liar. Try again."
[03:18am] Li_Chang: Nn! Dark hair, and I don't know how tall he is!
[03:18am] Changeling[alt]: Better. Facial features. /Now/.
[03:18am] Li_Chang: How should I know? He's always wearing that damned mask!
[03:19am] Changeling[alt]: ... Hmm. What mask?
[03:19am] Li_Chang: I don't know! It's just a mask to me!'
[03:21am] Changeling[alt]: Don't be pathetic. There are plenty of different kinds of masks. What colour is it, how much of his face does it cover? /Focus/ *another slash, this time near Li's hips.*
[03:23am] Li_Chang: Nn! It's red and it c-covers his eyes and the space around them! Like a stereotypical bandit or something, I guess. *intentionally getting the color wrong*
[03:24am] Changeling[alt]: Tch *he digs the knife into the slash, twisting it slightly.* You're lying to me again. I can /tell/ you know.
[03:25am] Li_Chang: *sigh of resignation* Black. It's black.
[03:25am] Changeling[alt]: ... Hm. So he's a Robin?
[03:26am] Li_Chang: I guess? I don't keep up with the whole superhero crowd.
[03:27am] • Changeling[alt] smacks Li's cheek idly. "Don't get snarky with me. It's unattractive. A Robin... my, but he has wandered. Tricky... let's go back to naming names. One last try, hm?"
[03:30am] • Li_Chang squeaks. ".... A- Allison."
[03:30am] Changeling[alt]: STOP LYING *he stabs into Li's shoulder, hard.*
[03:32am] Li_Chang: AAAAAAAAAeeeh... *cringes and goes to try and curl around his shoulder*
[03:33am] • Changeling[alt] sprouts tentacles from his ribs to hold Li down and prevent him curling. "I told you not to lie to me. You see what happens when you do? TELL ME THEIR NAMES."
[03:35am] Li_Chang: Noooo! *very adamant about this!*
[03:36am] • Changeling[alt] will just have to stab his other shoulder then. "Shall I flay the skin off you, Li? Would you like that, hm? TELL ME."
[03:37am] • Li_Chang screams in pain AGAIN, and tries the curling thing again but it's much less effective. He ends up nuzzling against one of Changeling's tentacles, crying and shaking.
[03:41am] • Changeling[alt] tilts Li's head back with a sigh, his hand firm against the bottom of Li's jaw. "Stay with me, Li. I've barely even begun. Just one name. Just one, and the pain can stop."
[03:44am] Li_Chang: K- K- Kaa. *still crying, here. He sold out his friend - dammit, his friend! But Kaa can take care of himself. Yes? Hopefully.*
[03:45am] Changeling[alt]: Hmm, that's a start. But I already knew that one *he pouts, and leans in to nip at Li's neck, trailing his tongue down to lick the blood from the wound on Li's collar bone.* Try again.
[03:47am] Li_Chang: H- Hanatarou. That's all I can think of!
[03:48am] Changeling[alt]: Who is Hanatarou?
[03:49am] Li_Chang: Someone I'd rather not see hurt. *can has just a little more snark pleez?*
[03:50am] • Changeling[alt] bites the wound on the collar bone sharply, tightening his grip with the tentacles. "Other than that, hm?"
[03:51am] Li_Chang: Nng... He's dead!
[03:52am] Changeling[alt]: Interesting. And?
[03:53am] Li_Chang: He's Japanese and very short.
[03:54am] Changeling[alt]: Mmm, you're doing well *he loosens the tentacles slightly and lightly strokes Li's throat with his fingertips.* More. Tell me more.
[03:56am] Li_Chang: He wears a lot of black...
[03:57am] Changeling[alt]: What kind of clothes?
[03:58am] Li_Chang: Futuristic-- I mean, modern. For... you know, now, and not where I'm from. *Changeling is free to have picked up from Li's manner of dress that he is from the 80's!*
[03:59am] • Changeling[alt] hmmms lightly and pokes at one of Li's shoulder wound with his fingers. "Is that all you can tell me? Oh, please, please tell me more. I want to knooow."
[04:01am] Li_Chang: H-he's a nurse.
[04:07am] Changeling[alt]: ... Mmm, that... you're not being completely honest with me. Have we not established my feelings on the matter? *He pushes his fingers into the shoulder wound and twists them viciously.*
[04:08am] Li_Chang: AAAAH! Yes, but I'm not completely lying! He is a healer!
[04:08am] Changeling[alt]: Explain that for me.
[04:09am] Li_Chang: Bandaids and things. I don't know if he's a registered nurse, but he's pretty good at it...
[04:09am] • Changeling[alt] twists his fingers again and tsks.
[04:10am] Li_Chang: Nng. He also has this... soul-power? He can just /heal/ people.
[04:11am] Changeling[alt]: Mmm, now isn't that interesting. No wonder you were suprised by my scars, hm? *He pulls his fingers out of the wound and licks the blood off of them.*
[04:12am] • Li_Chang whimpers. Oh, god. Can it be over?
[04:13am] Changeling[alt]: I had fun with you, Li, so I'll finish this now. To be nice. *He smirks lightly.*
[04:14am] Li_Chang: Wh-what...? *oh god, what now?*
[04:15am] Changeling[alt]: Just hold still and let me write the next part of my message, and then I'll send you home. Won't that be lovely? *He plunges the knife into Li's chest and starts carving an E, catching the ribs just right to make it very painful.*
[04:16am] Li_Chang: AAAAAAAAAAH! *imagine this scream as being as loud and blood-curdling as you would like* *there is also attempted flailing in pain*
[04:17am] • Changeling[alt] is still holding him down with the tentacles, and smiles wide and sharp, obviously enjoying himself.
[04:18am] • Li_Chang is not enjoying himself! OW. OW. OW.
[04:19am] • Changeling[alt] finishes up and kisses Li to make him stop screaming.
[04:19am] Li_Chang: AAAAAA-- mmf!
[04:20am] • Li_Chang is too messed up in the head to not like the kiss. Yay, it's not painful!
[04:20am] • Changeling[alt] is still a good kisser, even if his mouth tastes like Li's blood.
[04:20am] • Li_Chang does not like tasting blood. You are SO lucky he's not vomiting in your mouth, Changeling.
[04:21am] • Changeling[alt] would probably do something nasty if Li vomited in his mouth. As it is he pulls back and licks his lips. "Mm. Maybe I should keep you around for a while... and enjoy myself some more."
[04:22am] Li_Chang: I- hn... eh?
[04:26am] Changeling[alt]: I'll show you... *oh hello there groping tentacles and hands.*
[04:26am] Li_Chang: Wait! N-no! *flailing?*
[04:27am] Changeling[alt]: *Fade to black time is now!*

Also, and this is the IC part, as soon as Li is conscious again and near a phone, he will be trying to contact Hanatarou. Kaa, too, but I seriously doubt Kaa has a phone and Li is going to be somewhat indisposed for a while. So... Hanamun? How shall we do this?

RP - Locked to wright_idea et al.

2007-05-31T04:31:53Z

Our heros find themselves in what might be a lush, forest-like area. A quick look about will tell them that they're not in Kansas anymore - although their feet are remaining firmly planted on the ground, they are sensing something pulling them upwards. Like, you know, maybe gravity. There is a dim red sun above them at high noon in the night sky with stars all around it. Despite this, however, it is quite warm here - perhaps this has something to do with the stale, stagnant air around them. More heat and enough light to allow the travelers to see their way around eminates through holes in the ground, but the short, stubbly plant matter that exists seems to grow around and towards said holes.

There's no sign of Li, but there are lights and sounds that seem to denote some sort of village over in... that direction.

Our sordid years of loose women, fast cars, and big dogs.

2007-05-27T17:53:27Z

I'm sure this past week has taken years off my life. Okay, probably not. But I'm sure that when I'm old and wondering why I'm just not as able to get around as I used to be I will think back on all of the subversiveness, excitement, and lycanthropy of my teenaged years and will promptly blame... my children. Because picking on other people for your problems is way more fun than taking actual responsibility.

In my defense, at least the lycanthropy wasn't really my fault. I guess it isn't really anyone's, though it would be nice if I could be angry about the bite, which happened in the past, than dwelling on the present and future post-bite reality. To answer the questions that may be forming in your mind - yes, if someone who is phobic of werewolves becomes one, that does mean that he has an irrational fear of himself. I may be writing this out in a somewhat amusing fashion, but believe me, it's not a pleasant feeling.

There is a bright side, though! My leg was broken (high heels + Thailand + rescuing kidnap victim = dumb idea) and now it is... not. I don't think this happens on my world, but apparently when you get bitten by a Nexus Werewolf and change for the first time? It heals major wounds. Okay.

Still. Broken leg > lycanthropy in my book.

clever__fool @ 2007-05-04T10:51:00

2007-05-04T17:50:35Z

I've not written here in a while. My last post was in November or something. I also really haven't been keeping up with other people's journals.

Bad me. No toast.

- Changeling apparently got kidnapped a few days ago. I guess he was just standing around in the Sanctuary when this fishing line descended from above, hooked him, and then dragged him away.

WTF. WHAT THE FJDKALJFDLSKAFJ, WHO KIDNAPS SOMEONE THAT WAY? THIS IS NOT A FJDKLAJSL CARTOON.

Pheonix saw the whole thing, but only mentioned it... yesterday. Apparently, it just "never came up." You know, this conversation didn't happen:

Me: Hi, Phoenix.
Phoenix: Hi, Li.
Me: How are you doing? WITNESS ANY GOOD KIDNAPPINGS LATELY?!
Phoenix: No, but I did see this kind of sucky one...

Obviously, I need to get better about remembering to ask that.

All sarcasm aside, though - WTF. That's basically all I can think of to say. Firstly, I'm not quite sure who would want to kidnap Changeling who HASN'T already. Secondly, fishing line? Wtf? And apparently there's not even an evidence trail. No fingerprints or anything. AGH. KEYBOARDMASHINGTIMEFDKLAFJSLAJFADLFJADKLSFJADLS. Words cannot express the AGH.

- If I touch one more person. And they go all VUI8OSDAQTFHRE W9PERYU890RUEWQJ IOPYP9 because TELEPATHY. I will explode. Little bits of me all over your shirt, sir. YOUR DRYCLEANING BILL WILL BLOCK OUT THE SUN AND CAUSE A PERMANENT ICE AGE.

- In related news, I want to learn German. There was this nice... person... in the Sanctuary yesterday. Imagine a dog. Now, have this dog stand on his hind legs and dress him vaguely like Georik. There you go. His name was Axel Morgenroth and he seemed like an interesting fellow but he spoke only German. He gave me this antique pocket watch.

So, in case he ever comes back, it might be nice to know what he's saying without having to go through half an hour of flailing and having both of our brains turn somersaults.

- I am so sick of getting molested by drunken Klingons. Time to go to work.

OOC: On the other hand - paid account! :D

2007-03-16T17:48:05Z

Uggggggh. So, I got a job. So, now I have no time for anything, ever.

Well, that and I semi-intentionally dropped off the face of LJ for a while. Needed a break.

Anyway, I'm back, but it's going to take me forevarz to catch up with things. So, be patient.

IN THE MEEMTIME, HAVE A MEEM:

Give me a character, a pairing, or... whatever, and I will write a one-sentence fic about it. It doesn't have to involve characters I play, but canon characters are dangerous because I live under a rock.

THIS IS A TELECOM ANNOUNCEMENT

2007-02-02T03:10:20Z

Nobody has seen Li for several days. His coworkers at Samba have been having to pick up his shifts - which is just as well, he's picked up enough of theirs in the past. His living quarters, however, have not been untouched. At the very least, somebody's been taking care of his rat.

Wherever he is, though, you can be sure he's keeping notes of his surroundings. Mind you, they're in a pen and paper journal as he has no access to the Nexus whatsoever.

(And as a FOR REAL OMG OOC NOTE: For those that don't know, I've switched canons on Li. He's no longer a Potterverse character, but is from an original universe. His only powers are shapeshifting (which he sucks at) and telepathy (which requires physical contact). So... yeah. Just saying.)

Moondust gets in your trousers.

That's the way the song goes, right? Something like that. In any case, there is currently moondust in my trousers and it doesn't want to stay there. (Itchy, too.)

To do (not necessarily in this order):
- ~~eat~~ (check!)
- bathe
- go home

- Moonthingy: Dust! DUST! Inexplicably breathable atmosphere (which is full of dust)! Did I mention dust? Also, planet - swirling, red gas giant. I will call it Fred because its actual name is probably completely unpronounceable.

Yes, Planet Fred. With Dustin, its moon. (Dusty for short.)

- THERE ARE FISH. IN SPACE. SPACEFISH. Remember the inexplicably breathable atmosphere? Also: no gravity. It's like swimming, but harder. Alta and I jumped from Dusty to Random Asteroid #1899437, but completely missed because HAHAHAHA localised gravity what. However, spacefish have no problems with this, except that they get caught by spacefishing boats.

Oh, the wonders never cease.

- Alta has four arms and two tongues now. Am still a little fuzzy on how that happened.

- Got caught by spacefishing boat. Alta and I? Not spacefish. Also, compared to everyone else around here, I have too few arms and too many fingers. I would try to remedy that, but being of an obviously different species has its advantages. For instance, nobody expects me to speak the language here. Or know where I am. Which is wonderful because I am able to do neither of those things!

- People: are of indeterminate gender. Also, are either ugly (don't tell him I said that - I don't think he likes us), VERY DAMN TALL HELLO MA'AM, or really short (hahaha, people smaller than me~).

- I am taking horrible notes here. Seriously, these are absolutely awful. Am not going to be able to make heads or tails of these when I get back.

- Food sucks. And there is one utensil - an all-in-one spoon/fork/knife with a spiny thing. Hell if I know what the spiny thing is for. There seems to be an etiquette to it that does not involve stabbing people in the eyes.

Things learned:
- I am really sorry for yanking your mask off, Janoah.
- miniature ball lightning = no touch
- All in all, curiousity killed the cat

Aiyah~, what next?

HAY GUISE! [OOC]

2007-01-23T21:37:50Z

Have some meemz :D

Meme 1 - THE ICON MEEM. Post here and I'll tell you what my favourite icon of your pup's is. :D Because you totally care what I think. Then, post this meme in your journal because that's how memes survive.

Meme B - OH THE HUGE VANITEE MANITEE. Comment here and I'll tell you what I like about your pup. :D:D:D Then do this in your journal because it's totally not fair to fish for compliments and not give them out.

Meme pi - WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE MORE OF? Plot-wise, character-wise. Either concerning my character or not. Whatever. It's a meme that Hana-mun made up, so I POST IT.

This is my favourite icon at the moment. I think it basically says all you need to know about Li in a nutshell. Maybe I should make it his default.

[Locked to wright_idea - IMPLIED NON-CON BE HERE, KAY?]

2007-01-16T06:18:07Z

Li lead Phoenix into the main room of the Sanctuary, where Li departed from him and headed to the bar. "So! What'll it be? A Little Whatever, or shall I try to make something else?"

Try is the operative word here. Knowing nothing of bartending, and not even being much of a drinker, almost anything Li would make could be considered a Whatever of some kind.

OOC

2006-12-09T07:05:40Z

Because Li is kinda thread-locked (only kinda. Vaguely.) and because you know he wouldn't post about something like this ICly. >_>

TYPE N

You scored 91 imagination, 58 confidence, 16 dominance, and 58 generosity!

You are a KINKY, CONFIDENT, SUBMISSIVE lover who prefers to GIVE.

This means that:

You like relatively kinky sex, and you have the great imagination that will always keep your partner guessing and excited! There's no getting bored with you around, you could never settle for dull sex, you want something fun and new all the time. You aren't afraid to try out anything you hear about. You might just be an intelligent lover who needs to be mentally engaged, or perhaps you have some dirty dark secret kinky desires, but either way, you're never boring.

You are pretty confident in bed. This means that you know you can please your lover. Maybe you've read a lot of sex manuals, or have the experience from previous lovers, or just tend to be skilled at whatever you get your hands on, but you're good and you know it. You can really get results and know that you have pure talent, so you won't be hiding away shy, pretending to be all innocent. Your partners love your naughty self assurance, you don't hesitate and this makes you a sensational lover.

You tend to be submissive in bed, so you prefer to go along with what your lover likes rather than your own plans. You might like being ordered around and acting out a slave/master fantasy, or perhaps you just get turned on by being helpless and unable to move. Or maybe it's as simple as you lacking courage so prefering firm instructions in bed to make sure you are doing things right. Either way, you won't be dominating your lover anytime soon, and might prefer the missionary position to any others.

You prefer to give than recieve. This makes you a very unselfish lover, devoted to the needs of your partner rather than your own. You get your pleasure from seeing them get theirs, you are a model sex partner. I'm sure plenty of people would love to have someone like you in bed with them! Remember though that if your partner gets pleasure from returning the favour it's okay to let them, they might love giving as much as you do!

WE SUGGEST YOU:
Get crazy with the kissing. It sounds basic, but perhaps with all your wonderful kinky antics and games, you have forgotten how good it can feel just to kiss someone all over, and have the same done to you! Practise with different kissing styles, kiss your lover in places you've never kissed them before. Kiss to tickle, kiss to seduce, kiss for hours, or kiss when you know you can't go any furthur with it, like when you have to be at work soon. Rediscover kissing.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

You scored higher than 99% on imagination
You scored higher than 99% on confidence
You scored higher than 99% on dominance
You scored higher than 99% on generosity

Link: The What's your sexual style? Test written by lu-mina on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

OOC

2006-11-24T18:01:39Z

Hey, I'm in Colorado. (I know, I'm just all over the country lately, huh?)

So, I have my laptop, but I don't know how often I'll be able to get online. This is the first time I've been able to since I got here.

I'll be back home on Monday.

Isamu isn't allowed to leave while I'm gone. D:<

<3 yous~~~

clever__fool @ 2006-11-17T05:22:00

2006-11-17T13:22:39Z

You know.

Most people? When they get cloned, their clone is of the same species as they are.

Mine? Is an anthropomorphic insect.

I am an EVIL, HEARTLESS BASTARD. RAR.

2006-11-11T12:24:18Z

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	× I love to play video games.	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	✓ I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	✓ I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. (Several of them, depending on the person who is asking.)	× I hate the rain.
× I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	× I need/want money right now.
✓ I love sushi. (It's the only kind of meat I like.)	× I talk really, really fast.	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
✓ I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	× I have at least one sibling.
✓ I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
✓ I like the way that I look.	✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months. (I can't think of a specific instance, but I'm sure I have.)	× I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings.	✓ I think prostitution should be legalized. (Why not?)	× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent. (If I knew about it, it obviously wouldn't be very hidden, would it?)	✓ I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. (... Unless I'm depressed.)	✓ I have a lot of friends. ({a lot} >= 0)
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex.	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
× I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
× I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	× I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone.	× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	× I want to have children in the future.
× I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	✓ I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	✓ I am shy around the opposite sex.	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	× I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends.	✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career. (I don't really think there's room for that at my job, if you catch my meaning.)
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	✓ I am happy at this moment. (Content is more like it.)
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger. (Savannah is, as always, the exception.)
✓ I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
✓ I love my job(s).	× I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
× I walk barefoot wherever I can.	✓ I have jumped off a bridge.	× I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
× I am a pyro.	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	× I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved. (I don't think it was intentional...)
× I fall for the worst people.	✓ I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays. (?)	✓ I can pick up things with my toes. (But I generally don't.)	✓ I can't whistle.
× I have ridden/owned a horse.	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	✓ I talk in my sleep. (Sometimes, or so I've been told.)
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	✓ I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	✓ If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder. (Not that I have anyone in particular in mind, but I'm sure there's someone out there who needs to die.)	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	× I'm an artist.	✓ I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	✓ I am extremely flexible.	× I love hugs more than kisses. (They're both good.)
× I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	× I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then. (Shhhh. Don't tell anyone.)	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me. (Not that I care THAT much, but I'd rather people were happy with me than not.)	× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help. (I probably SHOULD. But I haven't.)	✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
× I can't stand being alone. (This is too general.)	× I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again. (Hahaha, that would be funny.)
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	✓ I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
✓ I have travelled on more than one continent.	✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear. (... What.)	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV.	✓ I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
✓ I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it. (Doesn't everyone?)	× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
× I am compulsively honest.	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	✓ I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	✓ I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
✓ I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	✓ I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	✓ I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car. (Or broom. Whatever.)	✓ I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	× I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	✓ I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it. (Part of that 0% is the fact that I don't want to raise them, admittedly.)
✓ I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human. (... By which I mean that we'd still be friends.)	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	× I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads. (True beauty is something that goes far, far beyond the matter of colour.)
× I am a twin!	✓ Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else. (Distractions are good for the mind.)
× I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes. (I think everything is a learning experience - therefore, I regret nothing.)	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
✓ I need more time to myself.	✓ I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
× I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	✓ I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	✓ Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

[RP - for Hana and Hayato, because bubble tea should be gone to Tokyo and gotten.]

2006-11-10T06:38:41Z

For Li, it was late in the afternoon when he stood in the Nexus near the portal leading to modern-day Tokyo. He had just gotten off of work, but had at least had the sense to have changed out of his hotpants-and-garters uniform and into an orange t-shirt and jeans. Fiddling with his braid, he patiently watched the conversations going on around him as he waited for Hanatarou (and probably also Hayato).

Four drabbles.

2006-11-03T09:21:56Z

Canon: 001 - Beginnings.

Li had walked up and down this hall three times, unknowingly, searching. He wasn't entirely sure what he was searching for - if he had wanted to be alone he could've done that easily. There were plenty of secret passages in Hogwarts that no other current students knew about and only he had been inquisitive enough to explore. Solitude wasn't what he was looking for, though. He just wanted an escape from life, a break from having to be that person, that horribly snooty, uptight and stuck-up boy that he had become around everyone but Lou and Savannah. It was taxing, hiding so much under a thick shell of feigned elitism.

It was as he walked by the third time that his eyes were drawn to a door that he hadn't noticed when he passed by before. All that seemed to be in the room beyond it, when he peered in, was large cabinet - like one of those old-fashioned wardrobes. A Vanishing Cabinet, it was called. He had always wondered where one goes when one is put into a Vanishing Cabinet. So, he got in and shut the doors behind him.

The next thing he saw was a Sign.

Possible future: 003 - Ends.

All good things must come to an end. The Nexus had been a great place to hang out, maybe even a great place to live, but it was time to say goodbye. No, maybe not forever, but for a long time. Besides, the social engineering, planning, and fighting involved in slowly conquering the world was starting to seriously cut into his Nexus time, anyway. Might as well actually say goodbye, rather than just fade into obscurity and be forgotten for a while only to be thought of randomly one day for people to go, 'gee, whatever happened to him?' Since there'd be no way for them to find out, they'd stop caring. He'd be one of those nameless people who used to be around but wasn't anymore and, eventually, nobody who knew him would be here, either.

Li couldn't have that. They'd care, because they'd know. Maybe they wouldn't care very much, but there'd still be some amount of caring going on and he wouldn't be a nameless person, just one of many who is trying to rule their own world. So, it's with all of this in mind that Li faces the enormous sitting-room that forms the questions-asking area of the Nexus and asks his last question:

"So, say you're going to take over the world. What country would you conquer first?"

Canon: 008 - Weeks.

"What have I allowed to happen to me?"

Li voiced this out loud, though there was no one to voice it to. It was true - what had he become? Soon - very soon now - he'd be free. Free to do what, though? All he wanted now was to be alone. Yet, he needed to be loved, and was painfully aware of that with every waking moment. It was to the point where he had started to replace emotional intimacy with... well, sex. He had become someone who would just up and try to seduce anyone he found attractive, and though those people were actually few and far between in the Nexus (and members of the female sex were strangely all but absent from this non-existant list), it was still strange. Not to mention pitiful, which had apparently been Cosmo's take on it when Li's advances had turned on his human form. How else was he supposed to get attention, though? He wasn't allowed to be with anyone he loved.

Mackey: 013 - Yellow

It hadn't been a visible line, no, but it was obvious enough when they crossed it. Her death was not neccessary - she knew nothing and they knew it. Indeed, it was unlikely that Mackey would ever tell anyone about her past, and yet it insisted on hounding her and killing all her girlfriends. For what? To take a little chip out of the shell that kept her from going all goopy everywhere like an egg? Would this help them somehow in the end? No. It was all about power. They couldn't succeed at killing Mackey herself so they'd off everyone she cared about instead just to cause some kind of internal anguish that they'd likely never see evidence of.

Fuck them. What they didn't know was that they were cutting all her ties so that she could finally leave without regret. After all, with everyone she loved gone, what was keeping her in Tokyo? Love for the city? Screw that, it's not worth her livelihood.

OOC: Nexus 100 Drabble Challenge

2006-11-03T04:16:57Z

Alright. I'm gonna do this, too. Actually, I was doing this at one point and had two or three one-page drabbles already written, but those will not be part of this. Perhaps they will be posted at a later date! :D

Anyway, but I thought that maybe since other people are doing it with me I'll be able to actually finish it this time.

The drabbles will represent canon, non-canon, and several shades of grey in between. Because it's not a black and white thing, you know. I'll try and make sure it's clear whether shit is canon, or happens in the future, or whatever. Also, not all drabbles will be about Li. Some might be about Mackey or Chi.

And some might be about Ho. Maybe. If he's a good pervert. >_>

So as not to clutter up the journal, they shall be posted once a day in clusters of 3-4 and clearly labeled.

001.	Beginnings.	002.	Middles.	003.	Ends.	004.	Insides.	005.	Outsides.
006.	Hours.	007.	Days.	008.	Weeks.	009.	Months.	010.	Years.
011.	Red.	012.	Orange.	013.	Yellow.	014.	Green.	015.	Blue.
016.	Purple.	017.	Brown.	018.	Black.	019.	White.	020.	Colourless.
021.	Friends.	022.	Enemies.	023.	Lovers.	024.	Family.	025.	Strangers.
026.	Teammates.	027.	Parents.	028.	Children.	029.	Birth.	030.	Death.
031.	Sunrise.	032.	Sunset.	033.	Too Much.	034.	Not Enough.	035.	Sixth Sense.
036.	Smell.	037.	Sound.	038.	Touch.	039.	Taste.	040.	Sight.
041.	Shapes.	042.	Triangle.	043.	Square.	044.	Circle.	045.	Moon.
046.	Star.	047.	Heart.	048.	Diamond.	049.	Club.	050.	Spade.
051.	Water.	052.	Fire.	053.	Earth.	054.	Air.	055.	Spirit.
056.	Breakfast.	057.	Lunch.	058.	Dinner.	059.	Food.	060.	Drink.
061.	Winter.	062.	Spring.	063.	Summer.	064.	Fall.	065.	Passing.
066.	Rain.	067.	Snow.	068.	Lightening.	069.	Thunder.	070.	Storm.
071.	Broken.	072.	Fixed.	073.	Light.	074.	Dark.	075.	Shade.
076.	Who?	077.	What?	078.	Where?	079.	When?	080.	Why?
081.	How?	082.	If.	083.	And.	084.	He.	085.	She.
086.	Choices.	087.	Life.	088.	School.	089.	Work.	090.	Home.
091.	Birthday.	092.	Christmas.	093.	Thanksgiving.	094.	Independence.	095.	New Year.
096.	Writer‘s Choice.	097.	Writer‘s Choice.	098.	Writer‘s Choice.	099.	Writer‘s Choice.	100.	Writer‘s Choice.

[kahaha, journal entry.]

2006-11-01T22:25:21Z

I ONCE WAS BLIND, BUT NOW I SEE~!

Also found my clothes. Aren't you glad? I am.

Need to return Kaa's sarong now.

And Sean's jacket and Hanatarou's kimono. If I didn't do that already. I dunno, I forget. Either I have them or I've returned them.

My mind is in a million places right now and, alas, none of them are here or now. Not that I mind~!

clever__fool @ 2006-10-30T23:47:00

2006-10-31T07:52:14Z

*dies*

[RP post - locked to Isamu]

2006-10-31T02:51:55Z

Li was lying on a couch in a part of the Nexus that wasn't very populated, listening to his headphones. Since he couldn't see or here anyone else - whether or not there was actually anyone else to see or here, he couldn't be completely sure - it was like complete solitude.

Which is just as well, he needed to think. Unfortunately, though, it meant that he didn't hear Isamu when he approached - pink bunny costume or no.

OOC: ART!!!!!

2006-10-28T23:05:20Z

In your FACE, Hana-mun!

It's a picture, yo. A really effing huge one. That I drew. I'd resize it, but I'm lazy and it's not worth it because it didn't scan right - the couch is supposed to be BRIGHT FLIPPING orange, you see, and the sleeves are supposed to be EFFING DAYGLO green. My scanner is apparently not 80's friendly. >_>

(Actually, most of the color is absent from that scan. It's really sad.)

Anyway, so, yeah. That's a picture. Of Li. Now Hana-mun can no longer claim that this picture doesn't exist. Because it does. Hana-mun loses.

So, there.

[journal entry - locked from Basil]

2006-10-25T22:47:28Z

Aiyah~~

Not that I suppose it matters, but I don't know what to think about Basil right now. I guess you could say I miss him. I mean, I'd like to miss him, but he did that. Which is something that I don't miss in general and I really didn't need it coming from him.

I think I understand why he did it. He's one of those people who understands physical affection more than any other kind, and that's all sex is in the end. He was trying to cheer me up. And, yes, I really do believe that. He's done it before. I was trying to break him of that habit, really - it's a dangerous one for exactly this reason.

It likely would've been fine except that I wasn't supposed to be letting him touch me. It wasn't that I didn't want it, it's just that I was saying no the whole damn time (even if it was because I had to) and he did it anyway! If I really hadn't wanted it, I don't think it would've changed anything.

But, alright. So, I understand it, and it's not so horrible. He even apologised. So, I'm not really angry at him. But does that make it any less fucked-up? I said at the time that I forgave him, but looking at it now... can you even forgive something like that?

The man needs help. End of story.

I really, really hope he doesn't try to talk to me anymore. I don't want to see him. Not because of the above, or anything else he did. Having to push him away all the time is just going to be very painful for both of us and I'd rather he stayed away so that I didn't have to do it anymore.

Because I still love him, as horribly fucked in the head as that is. Don't judge me. This is just very confusing.

In some messed-up way, I'm kind of glad that I'm not allowed physical contact with him. I should be avoiding him after what he did, and I'm not sure that I'd have enough sense to do so if it weren't for this.

Yeah, it's all very messed-up. I don't know what to think of that, or of the fact that I just wrote a hell of a long entry about someone who hopefully will not factor very heavily into the rest of my life. Damn it, why can't things just be normal and simple? I don't need this.

I wanna go ~~home~~ away.

Another Li/Basil AIM log

2006-10-25T01:45:32Z

This one is in narrative format.

Li has been sitting on a Convenient Nexus Couch for some time now, hunched over with his head resting on his knees as though very emotionally weary. He isn't particularly paying attention to anyone around him, and doesn't look as though he wants to be paid attention to.

Oh look! A Li! A depressed Li! Had Basil said something wrong when he didn't return Li's 'I love you' earlier? Surely that must be the problem. Only one way to solve it; hugs!

"Ohmygod!" Li jumps as Basil tries to touch him, and pushes Basil away - hard. He then withdraws, curling up into a little ball again. "Please don't touch me. I'm sorry."

Basil's eyes go wide as he tumbles to the ground, his jaw dropping somewhere to his knees. Hug... rejected? He thought they were together again. Had he royally screwed up this time? For good? The thought made hm want to die. "Li...."

Li looks similarly sad as he watches the expressions on Basil's face. "I'm sorry," he says again, "I can't let you touch me. ... It's nothing personal... "

"But why?" basil whimpers, his thumb coming up to his mouth. "Why not? I love you..."

"I can't tell you. ... Please go away." His eyes water as he says that last thing.

Shit. Is this how Li felt when he broke up with him? God, now not only did he feel like breaking down in tears, but he felt like the world's most insensitive bastard. How could he? How could he have done that to Li? "I thought you needed me."

"I do! But I shouldn't be with you. I can't." There is a long pause wherein Li just sits there as a few tears start to run down his cheeks. "I'm sorry."

Basil reaches out to wipe away the tears. He feels so responsible for this... All he wants to do is take Li in his arms and hold him for the rest of eternity. Maybe then everything would be all right.

Li slaps his hand away. "Stop it!"

Basil flinches, but brings his hand right back. He can't stop; he has to show Li how much he cares. "I won't," he whispers, and touches Li's face. "I know you love me, and I love you. Everything will be okay, I'll show you."

"No!" And his hand is slapped away again. "I can't let you touch me. We can't be together. I love you, but... I can't do this. It would be better for both of us if you just left me alone."

"No! Li please, I want to hold you! I'd do anything for you, just please... let me love you." he begs, knealing at Li's feet. He knows he's being slightly hypocritical, but with all the seperation and heartache... he knows he could fix everything if Li let him. He could be a good boyfriend this time, he knows it. All he needs is a chance...

"I can't! I can't, I can't..." He breaks down crying at this point, at a loss for anything else to do. He should just walk away, but where will he go? Li desperately needs someone right now, but there's no one he feels he can run to. "Please, someone help me..."

"Li, I'll help you," Basil murmurs, grabbing Li's hands and grasping them tightly. "I swear, I'll protect you from everything. I'll do what ever you need, just... don't make me leave you. Please. I'll be everything you need and more."

"No, stop it." Li tries to struggle away from Basil's grasp - he can't very well hit him with his hands immobilized like this. "I can't let you do that. I shouldn't need you, I shouldn't be with you, I shouldn't love you."

"Yes, you should!" Basil's practically screaming now, practically in hysterics. "I was wrong before, we should be together! I can be a good boyfriend, I swear I can, just give me one more chance! I won't hurt you anymore,I'll never sleep with anyone else, I'll never even look at another person like that so long as I live! I need you Li, I need you!"

"It's not you! It's nothing you did! I don't want to hurt you... it's just..." He trails off and tries to struggle away, muttering to himself, "Make it stop, make it stop..."

Li's hands are released, and before he cane react, Basil pulls him into an embrace, accompanied soon after by a deep kiss. He'll show Li how much he loves him... even if it kills him.

Li struggles as hard as he can, protesting all through the embrace and the kiss, but he's not very strong. His knife is in his pocket, though, and stabbing Basil won't hurt him permanently.

Tentatively, he reaches for it.

Basil doesn't notice through all the thrashing that's going on, evidently not thinking clearly as he pushes Li back against the couch. He'd make love to Li, that's what he'd do. No way Li could refuse him while he was busy moaning out his name.

A hand is slid over Li's chest and gently squeezes his groin.

Li pauses as he is pushed up against the couch, for once not struggling or trying to hit Basil as he registers what's happening now. He... he's going to be raped. Out of love. Why, this is just like--

NO. In one swift, determined motion, Li's knife is out of his pocket and then unsheathed. In another, it's flashing straight towards Basil's heart.

Basil doesn't even move as he sees the knife flash out. He could easily stop it if he wanted to, but he's in too much shock. Li would really kill him? Was he really hurting him that much? Then he deserved to die. He deserved to die and stay dead.

The knife plunges into Basil's chest, sending blood spilling all over the place. Li does not remove it immediately - if one stab does not kill Basil he is unsure if he has the courage for a second one. Nevertheless, he can't stop crying.

Basil instantly stops all movement, his face frozen in an expression of shock. He stays that way for a few moments, then coughs up blood, ducking his chin so as not to get it on Li's face. He's able to stay for a up for a second longer, then he collapses on Li's chest, dead.

Li removes the knife, but continues to lie there for a few more moments, just trying to calm down. What now, what now? He isn't sure, so he's just going to lie there even though he knows that Basil will wake up in a few minutes.

Basil lies there quietly for a few minutes, the bleeding of chest slowing and eventually stopping as his body repairs itself.

Oh, shit! Li notices this. Well, it's time to bolt, before they have a repeat of that. He gently picks Basil's head up, sits up himself, and replaces it on the couch.

Basil gasps as he starts breathing again, and his eyes flutter close. It'll be a few minutes before he wakes up completely, but he's alive now, and he's mind is in turmoil as it goes over what just happened.
Cong Li Chang: Li lingers for a second, but then gets up from the couch and starts to walk off.

"This is not right," he has to remind himself.

Basil bolts up as Li walks away, gasping and glancing around wildly. Li... where is.... there! "Li, come back!" he shouts, leaning over the arm of the couch. "Please, let me explain-!"

"Th-there is no excuse," he stutters. But he stops and turns around for some reason.

"I just wanted you to be happy...."

Li is terminally confused, and puts his hands on the sides of his head as though in some kind of pain. He looks frantic, searching for an answer, an explanation for all of these seemingly random events that are just doing nothing but hurting him.

"I don't understand."

"I thought if I made love you you, you'd stop trying to get away from me and let me love you again. That's all I want. You make me feel whole. I didn't realize it until now, but it's true. I wouldn't know what to do with myself without you, I need you here with me. I'm lost without you."

"I... what? Oh. I thought you were raping me."

"Well, I-!" Truth was, Basil was well aware of what he was doing. Not that he wanted to admit it. "I wouldn't say that...."

Those words are a little too familiar. "Nonono, I'm not going to fall into that trap again..."

He didn't mean it, honest! "Li..."

"What?"

"Please.... I'm sorry... I wasn't thinking. I just want to be with you."

And these words are unfamiliar. Li doesn't know how to take them in context. "I'm lost."

"Let me help you... let me be your light. I can show you the way."

"Nonononono. That's not right." He backs away.

"Not right?" Basil is confused. "Why wouldn it be wrong from me to want to help you?"

"Because, because... of what you just did. And other things."

"I wasn't thinking. I never should've done that. I'm sorry."

Something else unfamiliar. Li isn't sure why not to accept, so he does. "It's okay."

Basil is stunned. After all the fighting, and Li suddenly just accepts? "Can I hug you?"

"N-no. I can't allow that." Li wraps his arms around himself, as though to try and hold himself together.

Sigh. Of course not. He should've known. "Okay..."

"I'm sorry." He bows his head.

"It's okay..." But damned is he going to feel so messed up for a while. "I should go... Before I try to hurt you again."

"Maybe," he whispers. Then, turns to leave. "It's nothing personal."

"I know...." Doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. Slowly he stnads and walks away, looking over his shoulder the entire way.

Li does not look back.